borrowed intelligence.

i've been trying to read more and to not shut off my brain when people talk.

you have no idea how difficult it is for me to focus on people talking.

usually as someone begins to say anything (such as trying to explain to me an answer to a question), i only think of other things.

"i wonder what dave foley is doing these days."

"god, i need to fix my car."

"all i want is to go home and sleep for another 20 minutes."

"depeche mode used to be so much more comical than serious."

then i hit the trail end of the statement or explanation, and they always ask, "do you know what i mean," or "do you understand what i am saying?"

i always lie and say yes, despite the fact that i didn't really hear anything that they said.

i wonder why i always do that.