well, saddle my britches!

i didn't know what to think about "in rainbows" for awhile...but let me tell you. i like this album.
when it does its job, it does it well. i think what it comes down to is that the songs that kill me, totally annihilate my emotions! my god! that song "nude" freaking rules! so beautiful! oh, and then "15 step" is just awesome! there are some songs on here i'm not as into. i used to be a huge radiohead fan, but over the last few years have lost some of the enthusiasm that i used to have from the release of "ok computer"...although i still absolutely love "the bends", "ok computer", and "kid a" for sure...
the thing is that once "hail to the theif" came out, i sort of lost some of my interest. there was no real good reason for it either. actually, there sort of was...and its rather silly. after the release of "hail to the theif", i knew that i enjoyed most of the album. there were some songs on the album that i did not get as into, but for the most part i enjoyed the album. then the disc came out...the uh, oh crap. gotta look this one up. okay, when they put out "the most gigantic lying mouth of all time" video, i had a lot of friends that were in love with the material. i dug most of it, definitely. honestly...there are some great media geeks that love radiohead. heck, i suppose you could say that i've probably done some cool artwork based on certain concepts that they have portrayed. i think it was the hype of that video throughout the city that killed a certain spark inside of me. it was as if the very thing that they were trying to get across to their audience had been changed over for type of people that drive suv's, carry a little dog in their arms (that also happen to have $200 doggie shoes on), and gucci bags. it made no sense to me. this isn't the band's fault by any means, and i know this. i guess it was the fact that i had these feelings and emotions to the music, and the reactions that people gave to it were so completely opposite of my own. totally nuts.
then "in rainbows" happened.
honestly, the music itself isn't necessarily totally winning me over. there are some parts of this that are really great. there are some that i have yet to totally embrace. the thing i love is that radiohead stepped up and made this album a "your choice" kind of album. pay for it if you want. we don't care. you choose.
it recaptured this feeling that i had the first time i heard "ok computer"...which is a rather magical thought.
i mean, its funny really. i've heard that album so many times. i know people that can't stand radiohead. just picture this though:
you are driving through wyoming. it is pitch dark outside. its winter. it's -10 degrees. "climbing up the walls" is playing. you just got in a fight with your significant other, to the point where you thought you were just going to get out of the car, grab a bus, get back home and pack up everything you own. never talk to them again. even if you are married to them. just leave it all behind.
you only have a point of view of about 10 feet in front of you. trucks are passing you at blazing speeds. you are going 120 mph. you havn't passed a car in hours. you don't know whether you will lose control of the wheel at any moment. you can't slow down no matter what. you are in a hurry to go somewhere, anywhere.
you are crying. you are looking out at the tundra, but there is nothing around you.
you feel like you are in the laramie project.
you feel like you are hung up on that fence.
you feel so alone, and yet you feel completely welcomed by your own voice.
something about it all feels welcoming. everything seems to permanently last in your vision.
no one, not even the person that at this current moment you know you cannot even stand to be near anymore, matter in the slightest.
everything is better than it seemed.
wyoming is finally exciting.

this is what i think of everytime i hear "ok computer", and in a way, i almost hear that same resignated tone with "in rainbows"...
which i guess means that i feel as though i lost myself, but i was found. hopefully you all feel the same way about it.

for those that have yet to download it, feel free to get it at http://www.inrainbows.com


also...have you seen the "boy soprano" video yet from xiu xiu? this is pretty awesome. it makes me feel so weird to know that i played a show with xiu xiu years ago, and now they are so well known...really nice fellow too, by the way.

oh, and this is pretty silly, but i just made it at work.

and have a great thursday!