i've seen the planets wrapped up in you...

i have FINALLY had a good night's sleep. for weeks i've been sleeping bad. then i discovered the ultimate things that made me finally wake up refreshed, totally happy, and ready to start a great friday.
what i have been needing is a light amount of tea tree oil on my chest and under my nose to breathe better. with all the smoke and grossness outside (and i tested it by taking a shirt i was wearing that day and putting it into some soapy water in the sink...the water turned instantly to grey), my lungs have been working overtime. this has been causing me to feel slow, sleep badly (which also makes me even slower and more out of the loop), and it also causes me to go into really bad states of depression. considering that i am naturally only breathing about 1/3 of the amount of air that i should be because of my unfortunate level of asthma, i have to try to come up with solutions to open my lungs when i am resting or during exercise. this is perhaps the method i will attempt to use. then the other thing was even more simple! exercise! by walking around campus in the sunlight and taking in the sun, then rocking out to some really great music, i found myself feeling astronomically better than i have been. then, the next two things are yet even more simple and amazing. fruit! if i add lots of fruit to my diet, i seem to feel a lot better. for one, it gets me all those lacking vitamins and water that i need so desperately. last, but not least, i just needed time to not do anything else. relaxing, not doing band practice, talking to old friends...that sort of thing. that really helped my psyche last night. i was seriously getting worried about myself this whole week. my body was acting weird (and it was totally due to stress), and i found myself hitting these really scary lows. i'd wake up feeling this void and i wouldn't know why, and the funk wouldn't go away. i kept getting all these tasks put on my plate, and i couldn't seem to keep up with anything. even the things that make me happy were not totally taking me out of it. then i found myself craving many things yesterday and finally supplied my cravings with what they were asking. all day i kept thinking about green grapes. i've never been much of a grapes fan until about a year or so ago. last night i probably ate half of a 2 pound bag of grapes. that is an insane amount of grapes! i couldn't stop though. even though i didn't get as much sleep as i probably should have, i actually feel great and well rested. i havn't felt this great in months! perhaps even a year! i think it seriously has to deal with not having nearly enough vitamin c in my diet. how crazy it is that you do just one thing and you feel so much better the next day...so today i am going to do everything in my power to continue getting myself on this cycle. i am probably going to become one of those insane health nuts, simply because i've felt so crappy for weeks. i couldn't get my brain to focus, clear to the point where i couldn't talk to people anymore. i'm feeling so much more focused, relaxed, and ready to go out and bike for miles and miles. i've definitely been needing this. i'm so freaking happy right now! i know this is a somewhat over the top excited post, but seriously! yay! you don't even know how long i've been trying to figure this out!
now, in completely unrelated news...
looks like my work is doing a summer picnic on august 17th at julia davis. supposedly we're all floating the river,having a bbq, and there is a possibility to win prices and such. the last time i went to one of these was at my last job, and it was horrible. this one could actually be cool though. i'm trying to decide if i will go or not. its an all day sort of event....but i figure eh, why not?

well, i hope everyone else's day is fantastic! adios!