horrible, debilitating depression.

greetings sports fans.  most people in the world seem to be going through the same thing that we're going through currently.  you work as much as possible (if you can even find a job in today's economy), and then you see your money vanish.  poof.  it's that fast.  after spending gobs on groceries and bills, you almost forget that you ever had money to begin with.

you work until your dying day without a cent left to your name.

i guess i am in a bitter mood because i hate seeing the man i love beating himself up over having trouble with the economy.  i beat myself up because i don't make enough to support us completely.  every time we look at how little we have left after bills i feel as though i didn't do enough to keep us above water.  sometimes i wonder if i should get a second job for saturday and sunday shifts.  sometimes i wonder if i should just start doing as much overtime as possible.  i've been feeling like i have not been doing enough to keep us out of the situation we are in.  at the same time though, what else could i do?  work every moment of every day?  i already pull more than 40 hours a week half of time.  i know that there has to be something else i could be doing though.  i know there has to be another way that i could be earning us more income so that he can be happy.  i just want to do whatever it takes to see him happy again.  i just want to be happy again. 

i don't even know what to do anymore.

i just need to get a second job.  i'd only be wasting my free time anyways.