i am so glad i finally installed firefox on my work computer.

i didn't think i could get through administration rights to download, but it turns out that they don't seem to come up for google products. i downloaded firefox through some google options download thiingy, and sure enough it worked. now i can actually keep one browser closed in the system tray easily (i'm a big fan of trayit, i must say!) versus a gazillion of IE applications. the most irritating for me is that if i ever open a website like slate while having the IE browser placed in the system tray, it closes the application every time. i am always forced to resign in again and reopen any of the google stuff i had opened previously. with firefox, it works really great with trayit. you can keep google opened without and problems, and it helps many of the digg articles that i find to open with ease. with IE, it tends to not show images often. i honestly have no idea why.

what to mention. lets see.
i am really sleepy right now and am going through the cycles of maintaining some consciousness. i already decided i am leaving by 3:00 no matter what. i figure that i deserve it, and that the lack of things to do gives me proper right. plus, i honestly need to go check out this store that everyone keeps telling me about. i am excited about the opportunity to hang out with friends. i havn't hung out with my friends in so long that i've finally started to feel depressed about it. i didn't really notice that feeling until i got to that self realization that no one calls me anymore, and no one bothers to invite me to anything. i kept thinking that maybe i did something really stupid and wrong, or that maybe i am a dislikeable person. then i realized that i wouldn't hang out with me either considering i always have to work or do something else. perhaps this break will change this cycle, and perhaps it will also give me some time to get that boost of self esteem that i really need. i figure just seeing old friends and being able to sleep in for a bunch of days will help me considerably. i can't remember the last time i've had days in a row to relax without being under a terrible illness or under the blanket of a tragic experience. shit. it just makes me think about my great grandfather and whatnot. i sort of wish that i would have had time to go back out to wellsville for day of the dead. for one, that would freak out all inhabitants of that town, but two: it would have given me a chance to finally have some time alone to look at this really amazing part of my childhood. some of the more lucid memories i have as a child are all from that town. the fact that it is nestled away in the middle of nowhere, that hardly anyone lives there, that it is covered in a delightful layer of snow throughout a good portion of the year, it has this serene beauty that has always struck my fancy...despite being in utah.

outside of these things though, i am excited to see all the people that i miss dearly. i am excited to pat them on the back, share a drink, and hear how they have been. i hope they have all been good. i hope they thought of me as i thought of them.

most importantly, i am so damned happy it is friday. this is probably a weird thing for me to say, but i plan on getting mighty plowed today or tomorrow. i freaking deserve it!