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this weekend was so nice. i needed that more than everything. i love romance. if i don't have it, i feel like my life becomes an endless cycle of the same boring drivel. i'll find myself becoming depressed, feeling like a doormat, and wondering where the fun in life starts and ends. thankfully this was not the case. if i end up having the weekend to myself again (which i am sure i will), i might go out to the dirt trails on 8th street and go for a hike. i suppose it is time to take myself out for a date. i havn't done this in awhile. the last time i went out to breakfast at a nice french restaurant in town, and i sat there crocheting (which i found out that fine dining restaurants become perplexed by such an activity), and i ravished my quiche and coffee. it was delightful! it is one of my fondest memories of recent, for some odd reason. not really sure why. i guess i'm just excited any time i can get some french cuisine.

what else to mention?

the news lately has been pretty nuts. supposedly bush was reported stating that, "world war three is worth starting over iran" ...
don't even know what to say to that. i just remember having a dream about two years ago where the world fell into this apocalyptic chaos (much like what i would expect from wwIII)....makes it all seem so much more real when you read a headline like that. scary...

at some point this weekend, i was sitting on the couch and thought, "i have such a wonderful existance." it was really nice.

i also must give a big congrats to my old roommates blake and brittney for their band review from aquarius records! very sweet! it is mentioned on this page:http://www.aquariusrecords.org/cat/newest.html, to those of you that would like to check it out. the band is pussygutt. good job, b's!

as for today, i am going to attempt to move all my crap into one designated spot until there is an actual location for me to put everything. i sort of feel in the way with my crap. if i have enough time, i suppose i'll take a bunch of it over to a thrift store. it sounds terrible, but i don't feel like the house is totally "ours" yet, or whatever. i still sort of feel like a guest, meaning that all this stuff being everywhere is driving me bonkers! once i get locations for it, i'll probably feel like i can calm down a little on such notions.

now i'm trying to decide if i should be hunting for the normal white wedding dress, or actually look for one with a shade of some color. maybe brown. maybe a light blue. i have no idea. i just know that white makes me look pale enough that people might think i joined a white supremacist group, or something. yikes!
i suppose i should wait on it all. i have no idea. i get from some people the, "wow, you really are slacking on this," and others say, "oh, you've got plenty of time." i have no freaking clue. i've never had to plan a wedding before. i don't have much i have to do, but i still have a few things. primarily, i have to talk to my parents about everything and figure out how to save enough money for a bunch of things (like the ring, the dress, etc). it will be figured out. its just a process.

i guess i should start calling some of my friends. i'm starting to miss some of them. i guess i've fulfilled some of my "alone" time for awhile.

...so i wrote all of that about an hour or so ago. now i am sitting here, no work to do, totally bored out of my mind. i've read all the major news stories, and i've even played an online crossword puzzle and jigsaw puzzle. in a way i like when it is slow, but for the most part, it makes the time go by so slowly. i'm attempting to think of ANY form of work that needs to be done. i still have yet to think of anything. i also did the booze run earlier, so that's all taken care of. the more i think of it, the more i'm not even sure what my title is here anymore. i think its sort of about 20 different jobs. oh well.

gosh, there are so many things i've got to take care of. i think one of the biggest ones is getting my ring fixed. i just got hit on by this weird dude at wal-mart (when i had to take the booze back from work). yeah. well, and because i keep forgetting i'm actually getting married, since the ringless finger makes me stuck in the "i'm just dating" world. i don't think that per se, its more for the fact that i have people coming up and asking if things are working out...if it got called off...really messed up questions. it drives me nuts! i've started to get a little snippy back, but i don't really have a full line of great commentary to say back. soon! i will start making lists for that crap. jerks.

i did discover one thing today though that slightly bugs me. so, i got dressed up for work today. i get treated at least 50% better with EVERYONE (whether it be here or anywhere else) if i am dressed up. people hold doors open for me, they ask me how my day is going, they are more willing to assist...its a whole slew of what people should be doing in the first place. instead, most of the time they look at me as if i am a freak (so i like to dress up creatively! what's the big deal with that?). today though, they treated me like i walk on water. it sort of makes me wonder...if i do this everyday, will i still get the same treatment? is it an encouragement to conform? is it an encouragement to strive to be beautiful?
do i have too much freetime to think about this crap? i mean, seriously!

i'm sitting back listening to blond redhead. i forgot how great, "melody of certain damaged lemons" is. i had a long conversation not long ago about blonde redhead with a friend of mine. i love what he said on the subject..."they are one of those bands that i own all their albums, but i never listen to them. when i do though, i'm always sort of satisfied. i don't know why, but i had to collect their stuff."
cracks me up.

and i probably shouldn't admit to this, but i have a new crush. well, a rehashed crush. yes.

<333 andre 3000. even though i like the big boi side more from speakerboxxx/love below, i just think he's a jazzy fellow.

i mean, look at him! its like the crush i had as a kid on flava flav. it has to happen sometimes.