various forms of mental decay.

i suppose i'll just post various things here.

years ago, my sister and i sat in the yard and observed the stars. i saw a ufo (or so i still believe to this day), and my sister told me that i was crazy, even though she also could not understand what we were seeing as well. weird.

i found this site today. it really freaks me out.
http://www.hellhousemovie.com/

i've been losing weight, as of recent. i am actually really good with this. it isn't even about my belly. i'm sick of having a chest. i figure about 5 pounds less and i'll be all back to my normal, very average status.

i had a dream the other day about one of my ex boyfriends from about a year ago. we were walking through these fields, and he kept throwing rocks at me and telling me to speak more loudly. when i woke up, i totally had to pee. it is true. when you have to pee, your dreams become nuts.

then last night i had one of those dreams that i didn't graduate high school. i didn't think i really graduated for about 3 minutes and tried to figure out how i got where i am without my degree.

then for awhile today i decided that my mind drives me nuts. i make myself think some weird things sometimes. some really weird things.
i guess we all just wish a great many things that cannot really happen. its not a bad thing whatsoever. its what makes us who we are.

i sort of think that i might have actually really screwed up my wrist. i've been attempting to figure out a trick to getting it popped back into place. i think i'm going to try to do the opposite affect of what i did to get it to where it is now. weeks ago i accidently got my wrist thrown backwards between the arm of the chair, and the bottom of the desk. it hurt badly when it happened, and my wrist made a really loud crack sound. now i'm thinking of throwing my wrist off in a downforce motion, same place, and seeing if it will place it back into place. who knows. i'm not trying it now, but i am considering it. it cannot be too serious, considering i am able to type and conduct any regular daily activity without any major pain. i only notice it if i use a wrist bent downward motion, and its a rather annoying and sharp pain. if i was able to put my ankle back into place years ago, i'm thinking i can do the same with my wrist. it will just have to take time, a lot of heat, and a slight bit of pressure.

i figured i would also mention that i also realized i have to do something with my hair eventually. i think i'm going to get it to eventually be like this:

i just like that big amount of umph! that is on top of her head there. real classy.
i just like to feel attractive once in awhile.