my brain is thinking at top speed. it is thinking full throttle about many things.

i hate assumptions, but i know i make them constantly.

the one thing i do know though is that this is a time where things should seem so simple and real. when i was a child, the world seemed so pure. chaos didn't seem as noticeable at first.
then there was desert storm, which terrified me.
now in my adult years, i feel even more confused and frightened by what is going on around us. i often wonder if this is the idea of my mind trying to look past that life that i always imagined...say the ideals of some sort of non-threatening, fake 1950's t.v. lifestyle, versus the present day chaos going on in the middle east that our news so humbly ignores. yet i still have these surreal moments where i feel as though everything will be okay in my selfish delusional psycho trips. in other words, what is going on in front of me that doesn't need to be examined, and the things that need to be researched....
hopefully what i feel is exactly as i am hoping it is. hopefully the world can eventually be a place where freedom of speech can actually exist.