i finally have enough time to really write about something. anything.
where to begin.
as of today, i've noticed that i have not been myself lately. there is no real reason for this either. i'm just tired and sort of out of it. then it finally made sense about an hour ago. allergy season. yup. allergies. that, and lack of sleep. i've been thinking a lot about nothing in particular. that's how my mind is. most of my thoughts have been focused around the idea that now i have to be some kind of professional, or some kind of adult. i've always struggled with the idea of conforming to the ideals of the world around me. i've felt like i have been, yet i know that i'm doing the right thing for the long run. i want to eventually have a home, a comfortable lifestyle, all my debts paid off, and enough time to write my book and record an album. i want to travel again and do all the things that i dreamed of as a child. someday i will make it to sweden. someday i will go to trinidad. someday i will have collected a leaf from every state in the us for my state tree. someday i will settle down and awaken every morning to their sweet lips, smiling at the new day. someday i will be able to say that i felt every moment fully, without any regret
while i have been in a funk that seemed overwhelming, i can say that each moment i have lived fully without any regrets...just love and ambition for everything to come.
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