weirdness...

out of the blue, i saw someone i had not seen in six or so months. i originally spotted brendan, ignored him since i knew that if they came up to me i'd probably throw my drink at him. he finally caught me off guard and came up to me.
"holly, can i talk to you?"
we walk off, sit down with our drinks. he looked clean, as if his mom had been back in town. his hair was nicely kept, his clothes clean. he looked like he did when i first met him.
"i have to apologize to you. i lied to you for months, and i owe you more than i could probably ever make up to you."
i looked at him and knew exactly what he was going to say.
"i had been using and i didn't want you to find out. i stopped calling you because i lost myself all over again. i got help and cleaned up again. i moved out of that house...moved over where you used to live. i was terrible to you, and i've never forgiven myself for it. there's not a day that goes by where i don't think about you. i owed you so many phone calls and compliments. i owe you a lot. i've been driving by your new house to see if i'd see you, and i thought about calling you in the last two days. i live in mccall most of the time, and i'm only here on the weekends...but i want you to see my new place and be in my life again. i really care about you."
i sat there, totally confused. i didn't really know what to say. i finally just said, "oh..." and tried to format all i was hearing. no matter what i always cared about brendan, but i was upset and annoyed at him too. he stopped calling, always spent his time at the bar and didn't care about my emotions whatsoever. he was selfish. originally though, when he was clean, he was extraordinarily friendly and fun to be around. its the keith complex, as i'd like to call it. he asked me if i wanted to get food that moment, and i objected (it was 12:30 AM already...past my bed time). i got into my car, he gave me a hug and said he wanted to hang out and talk sometime. i just sort of gave an awkward wave and left without knowing how to process the event.
and i missed the girls next door show. sorry brion and thomas. i watched as much as i could, and then all of this happened...and its something that has needed to be resolved to ever be friends...blargh....